The first few months of blogging.

I've only been blogging for a few months. I thought I would write a post about the first few months as a blogger cause I'm meta AF. 

So far I don't feel like it's going so well. I think it's been about three months and I only have 15 followers and two of them are me from a different blog. But that's the thing. I've had other blogs. I've been on other blog sites and this is the closet I've ever got to having any followers. So maybe this is embarrassing but I'm proud of myself. 

Every time I start a blog. I design it (megerly) and I write posts. Sometimes I write dozens of posts but I never publish anything. I may put something up for and hour or so. Maybe two things. Then I take them down. I had another blog on WordPress, I never posted anything. Well, I posted one thing. The title was "Will I Ever Post Anything Here?" And the one word of text was: No. 

This is not my first rodeo. 

This time I told myself, I'm just going to post this shit. It's not going to be perfect. It's not even going to be decent all the time. That's not important. 

What is important is that I am posting something. I'm practicing. I'll get better over time. In the meantime, I am learning how to work with the templates. I'm figuring out the social aspects. I am reading other people's blogs and drawing inspiration from them. I'm not doing great right now but I'm already doing better than I was two weeks ago. Two weeks from now I will be even better, I hope.  

I think that's an important thing to talk about because I know a lot of people are paralyzed by their need for perfection. It's not just me. It's a hard place to live. It's a bad neighborhood. You're afraid to success and afraid to fail so you do nothing and then you hate yourself for doing nothing.  

Well, not you. Me. We're talking about me here. As always. 

Is this relatable, though? Has anyone reading this felt the same way I do now? What helped you to realize that you're not necessarily going to be perfect right out of the gate and that it's okay to be vulnerable and give yourself the chance to make mistakes in the pursuit of becoming better?