I can’t remember the last time I watched an actual tv show on my phone or tablet. I just watch YouTube. I’m obsessed with YouTube. It has changed my life.
I guess I didn’t really understand YouTube for years. I thought it was just cat videos and clips from old tv shows, honey badgers. I didn’t realize that there is a whole community of people who make their living shooting videos of their lives and I fucking love it. It really quenches my voyeuristic thirst. Normally that only gets quenched in the summer, when Big Brother’s on. This year I haven’t been that into Big Brother. It’s probably because I’m always on YouTube.
Typically for me, the way I use YouTube is that I get on there, find some people that interest me and then watch basically all their videos. Then I find a new person, usually through their collaborations with the previous person and I watch all of their videos. Then I find other new people and repeat repeat repeat. I still don’t think I’m doing it right. Now that I’ve watched the complete playlists of several people, I obviously watch all their new videos when they come out but I’m always looking for new people to binge watch. In my opinion, it’s way more interesting than television.
Of course I also watch instructional videos. I mostly watch beauty gurus because that’s what I’m interested in right now but you can find videos on how to do anything on YouTube. Anything. My husband has fixed several things wrong with our cars, our house, even our electronic devices. YouTube can save you so much money on home repair. Even more so if you think about how few things you can break if all you do is sit around and watch YouTube.
Probably the best thing YouTube has done for me, though, is getting me to actually start this blog. I have had blogs for years, I’ve had this blog for years, but I never posted anything. I would have so many posts in my draft folders but I never posted a thing. By watching my favorite youtubers and realizing that they weren’t necessarily beautiful, or exceptionally smart or funny (most of them are at least one of these things but not always)but they all had these three things in common:
- They were all being their authentic selves.
- They were persistent and consistently put out content
- They didn’t live or die by what people thought about them in the comment section.
It made me think, “hey, I can do that, too.” I’m not ready to put my face all over the Internet (and no one else is ready for me to do that either) but I can put my writing on the internet and I can be myself. Hopefully some people will like me and hopefully the ones that don’t will just shut the fuck up about it but even if they don’t, I’ll be alright.
Whenever I would get scared to post my writing in the past, I just didn’t post it. Now, even when I feel discouraged because I had a few posts in a row that no one liked, or I’m just doubting myself in general, I think of all my little YouTube friends and how they’ve made whole careers for themselves. Just using their own ambition and some editing equipment. They really have inspired me to carry on.
I know that’s not very funny but I mean it sincerely. Just having this creative outlet has helped me so much. I don’t think I’ll ever make money doing this and that’s fine. I’ve met some really great people. I’ve got a lot off my chest. Most importantly, I’ve gotten back into the habit of writing again which is almost like meditation to me.