I don’t know what to do with my hair now. It has always been oily. It has always been flat. Now it is dry. It poofs out. It's a whole different animal.
I knew when I went blonde that my hair would change texture. That's most of the reason I did it. My hair has always been fine and thin but the older I get the thinner it gets and I read that bleaching, though actually damaging to the hair, is sort of good for fine, thin hair because 1) the way it damages each strand of hair makes it appear thicker and 2) when you are pale like me there is less contrast between blonde hair and your scalp as opposed to my natural medium brown hair. This means it's not as easy to tell how thin my hair really is.
So I knew all of this going into my new life as a blonde but it's still really hard to wrap my mind around. Things that have always been true for me and my hair are now, no longer true. For example, I no longer need to wash my hair everyday to keep it from looking like I was literally dipped, head first, into a vat of oil. The fact that I really shouldn't wash my hair everyday is fucking with my head.
I didn’t wash my hair before work last Friday and I didn’t take a shower Saturday before I went out to the store and to the gym. I wouldn't say that I looked good either day but I didn’t look that bad. I didn't look greasy. I'm not saying I've never gone two days without washing my hair before but I am saying I certainly wouldn't have been able to leave the house that way.
I just need to learn how to extend my hair do with products and dry shampoo. I am working on it. I do technically know how to use these things. Like I said, they are just very new to me. I am learning.
I’ve learned that I need to spray coconut oil, or the like, on my hair now after I get out of the shower. That's so bizarre to me. Can you even believe that? Can you even believe that I am purposefully spraying oil onto my hair when my whole life I have been doing everything in my power to keep it from looking greasy?
I wish we had dry shampoo when I was in high school but honestly, before we bleached my hair, when I tried dry shampoo, it never really worked for me. I still looked like I needed to wash my hair. I used it like I was supposed to. I put it on my hair when it was still clean and I let it sit on my scalp before I brushed it through. Even still it didn’t really do that much for me. Now it seems to be working fine, which is a good thing. because I really shouldn’t wash my hair everyday anymore. So weird.
Now, I guess the thing I need to work on is perfecting the art of the two and three day hair style. I've been watching YouTube about it so it should all be fine soon. It's just that I can only practice so often, especially when I have to go two to three days between practices. I'll get there. I am definitely not there yet. I just sit with all my dry shampoos and volumizers and moisturizers and hair masks and blow dryers and curling irons and flat irons and all these little kits I bought to do things like wear my hair in pin curls and etc. I just sit in front of all of these things and go, "Now what?"
I probably need to do something with my bangs. It might be almost time for a new hair cut. I want to grow my hair out but I want to keep the ends neat. I have so much to learn.